Betrayed…..

At the first crow of the cock today, it was clear it was going to be a long, hard, bad day, naturally I felt this would only apply to the academic area…..little did I know that it will extend much, much further than that.

I got out of the lecture hall, walked out of the faculty, taking the General Studies building route, and then I spotted “you”: the reason why we weren’t speaking for over a year

Somehow things are going so well, I never thought “you’d” resurface again after all that happened, I just felt that “you” were the black stain that spoilt the snow white garment……even though something at the back of my mind did tell me that I was wrong, I never listened…..I thought “they” were right, I only wanted “them” back, I only cared about “them” and no one else because I felt “we” were connected, because “they” became my family in a strange land….everything felt so easy having them around……everything felt so real and so good…….or so I thought….

Then “you” came, “they” said “you” turned it inside out, “they” said “you” soiled the snow white garment and I kept wondering why, I kept asking why, “you” were good to me, so good to me…….and “they” kept saying things, unbelievable things, things that made my heart ache, things that made me cry……it was unbelievable and I kept asking why…..

“We” got past it that night……I cried, “they” consoled, saying that’s how “you” are…..
Little did I know that it was a conspiracy…..”she” had her eyes on “you”…..and couldn’t bear to see “you” take one other than her….and the betrayal worked……I loathed “you”, I hated “you”, I despised “you”….but….somehow at the back of my mind I waited for “you” to prove to me that everything was a lie….but “you” never did…..

Now “you” resurface, digging up dirt that has been long buried…..because “you” want to set the record straight…..as hard as it was, I gave “you” audience……a part of me waiting for the truth……and there…..”You” dropped it like a bombshell! “You” never said the words out loud……but one sentence said it all for me…..my suspicions were now confirmed after a long wait…..

I got up, hurt, and angry, I left, my heart heavy, my eyes heavy, my eyes watery…..
I walked down 11:45/Coke Villa and Oceanic Bank routes, trying so hard to control the tears, but it was so hard…..the tears just didn’t stop flowing….

I headed to my hostel, with my already swollen eyes……and I sat down to think about it all….and my heart got even heavier after I realized that this was yet another case of a more painful BETRAYAL

The Climb

I can almost see it, that dream am dreaming but there’s a voice inside my head saying you’ll never reach it.
Every step am taking, every move I make feels like am lost with no direction, my faith is shaking.
But I, I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high
Theres always gonna be another mountain, am always gonna wanna make it move, always gonna be an uphill battle,
sometimes am gonna have to loose, aint about how fast I get there, aint about whats waiting on the other side,

The struggles am facing, the chances am taking sometimes might knock me down but I know that I am not breaking,
i may not know it, but these are the moments that am gonna remember most, I gotta keep on moving, and i gotta be strong,
just keep pushing on……it’s the climb…

(The Climb by Miley Cyrus)